One week more to ... SABAH

And so, the wait for posting is over. And I am being called, posted, sent (whatever you want to call it) to the beautiful land of Sabah. Not sure where in Sabah, that I shall find out in due time.

It's been an exciting past few weeks of preparing and telling people of the news. I got to know on the cheery Saturday morning of the 1st of August. 

I leave on the 17th of August for the orientation which will be in a hotel in Klang and then we shall fly off on the 18th. As of today, the 17th is a week away, SEVEN days!

For now, there's still packing and paperwork to be done and lots of bidding farewells to loved ones here. Of course I'll be back over time but it's always good to have proper goodbyes and appreciation for the people who have been a part of my life here in PJ. I am thankful for the paths crossed, the relationships built, and the moments spent.

I will miss life here. I will miss the family and the friends. But I am excited to start anew, to go discover life away from all I know to be comfortable and common to me. I am nervous, I am scared, but I know God is with me and He goes before me. 

SEVEN DAYS...

God, I trust You. Help me as I prepare to go where you send me.

been

Been a while since I wrote.

Been a while since my wait. 

Been a different kind of journey.

Filled with joy, filled with pain.

Been hoping, waiting, trying.

Been getting out a bit. 

Been seeing things a little different.

A change of point of views.

Been learning life again.

Been humbled, been redeemed.

Been falling and then captured

In time, in grace, by Love.

Next steps

So, I am not in the state of limbo anymore...

I got my call for an interview last week, in regards to my posting.

And after a pretty long wait, it was such exciting and happy news.

It's not like I got my job and posting already... but at least it's a step forward.

It's still an unknown journey ahead.

But I will take it step by step with God.

In the preps leading up to it, I feel a mix and myriad of feelings: nervous, excited, uncertain, hopeful, and so much more from one end of the spectrum to the other.

I am thankful for the people who share in my joy and excitement, who back me up with prayers and encouragement, from the support near and far.

One step at a time. Be still my heart. I will not fear.

hanging on

Hanging on to faith.

Who do I believe in? Who is it I trust? Can my faith hold through even in the darkest moments? Faith - the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1) To trust that the convictions and experiences of God in my life and in the lives and testimonies of others before and around me are true. God is true, and in Him I place my trust.

Hanging on to hope.

To know His ways are higher than our ways and that everything happens for a reason. That in the end, the struggles and hardships were worth it. That there is a light, a glory at the end of the tunnel. That in Him there is hope and hope abundant.

Hanging on to love.

Love that came down to us, love that saves us. Love abundant, love divine. Love that first loved us, even at our lowest, even in our brokenness and imperfections, when we were undeserving, unworthy of it. Love still chose us. And because He first loved us, we love too. To love God with all our heart, all our mind, all our soul, and with all our strength. And to love others as ourselves. Love that goes beyond logic and sense, love that is unconditional, strong, relentless. Love that reaches out.

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. 

But the greatest of these is love. 

(1 Corinthians 13:13)

May my life and days be filled with these. Though I may struggle, may I grow in these. May I never forget who it is who gives these gifts, who it all depends upon, who makes all the difference. It is God and God alone. Not I, for I will always fall short and fail. Not I, for I am weak and frail on my own. It is indeed Him and Him alone who keeps us hanging on. 

Hang on.