“Prioritizing is a constant task that, if done well, will keep you from getting overwhelmed. But, if you don’t prioritize using God’s Spirit and His Word as your plumb line, you will lose peace, feel like a failure, and end up doing nothing well. And that is never God’s purpose. Beware of the shoulds other people assign to your life and learn to say no. Remember: Just because you can, doesn’t mean you have to.” –Lisa Ryan
Why didn’t I read this earlier in the semester? Well, it’s not too late.
God, teach me and guide me to prioritize well the things I have to do that my life may glorify You through it all. Even when things are so overwhelming at times and I feel like giving up, help me to know and believe that indeed with You, nothing is impossible. I’m sorry for the things I’ve messed up and I ask for Your grace and mercy to continue to steer me back to Your paths.
We’re now in Week 13! Two more weeks to go! 
5Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. 6You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it.” (sounds familiar!)
7This is what the LORD Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. 8Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build the house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,” says the LORD. 9“You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?” declares the LORD Almighty. “Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house. 10Therefore, because of you the heavens have withheld their dew and the earth its crops. 11I called for a drought on the fields and the mountains, on the grain, the new wine, the oil and whatever the ground produces, on men and cattle, and on the labor of your hands.”I ask myself, "What have I been building?" Have I gotten so caught up in doing the things I've been called to do that I forgot the one who called me? Have I lost sight of my purpose here in UM, in TESL, in JTK, in PKVUM? O God, remind me once again of my purpose of being where I am. You said that this season would be one of preparation and equipping. I feel like I'm taking steps backwards, like I'm going nowhere :( God, maybe I don't see it now or maybe I've turned off the original path set for me and am going in another direction. But God, I ask that if it is the case of me not being able to see, that You would help me to trust in You no matter what. Little glimpses of what is to come would be nice :) And if it is the case of me going off on another road apart from Yours, I pray You will direct and guide me back to the right path and cause me to walk steadfastly with You. Lord, whatever time I have left, I offer it up to You and ask that You would teach me what to do. I trust in You.
Haggai 1:5-11
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| Chinese New Year 2011 |
I am starting to do a book entitled ‘Praying for Purpose for women’ 
a birthday gift from Joshua Chin when I was 18 years old. I believe it was quite timely for me to start the book at this time. Life’s been non-stop since university started 
been very busy and am growing weary, feeling pretty lost and frustrated many times.
And as I type all this out, I’m going to try to be as honest as I can be. I am fully aware that there are a ton of flaws and imperfections in me, to the point it is called “ugly”. But I hear, acknowledging it is the first step to change, painful and humbling steps.
The question today was “What are you afraid of?”
Two things:
1. Failure
2. Disappointing others and God
And that’s simply what I’ve been facing. A lot of things not going my way, things in the “could have been better” state, regret, letting others down, disappointing others and myself. It’s been so frustrating 
Makes me question, “Am I a people pleaser kind of person?” I think to a certain extent I am. I’ve always wanted to prove myself for something since I was young having struggled with many “Who am I?” questions at one point. Achievements were something I sub-consciously chased after. Certain events made me realize this, such as when I found myself being quite upset over the so-so results I obtained for STPM. Through many of those times, I found God’s grace and love telling me I need not prove anything to Him, for He loved me for who I am, who He created me to be. Many times, I found myself in His comfort finding my worth and purpose in Him when the circumstances around me told me otherwise. Thank you, God.
At twenty one, I still struggle with myself. I still look at expectations and shudder, yet I still do what I am expected to do till the point where I just do it for the sake of doing it. I’m not sure where this will take me. I think I need to start to take some steps back and look at it all from a distance again and ask, “Why am I doing this?”
I want to be a God pleaser, not a people pleaser. I want my life to be lived for His will and His purposes not the will and expectations of man on me.
God, teach me and grant me Your strength to face my fears and begin to live a life of victory for You.
The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged. – Deuteronomy 31:8Remind me; it’s not about me, it’s ALL about God.
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| we were saying we could photoshop some sheep into this picture and go on to say we went to New Zealand :) |
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| Travel bunch :) |
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| Swim in the cold river - checked! Swimming against the current was pretty fun and entertaining :D |
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| Start a camp fire - checked! No marshmallows though :\ |
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| Instead we used the fire to dry ourselves :P |
Just wanted to share something I got when I read Matthew 8 recently.
Matthew 8 is divided into six parts, and in each of these six parts we can learn a little something about our faith in Christ.
Matthew 8
The Man With Leprosy (Matthew 8:1-4) – Will
1When he came down from the mountainside, large crowds followed him. 2A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said, “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.”
3Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing,” he said. “Be clean!” Immediately he was cured of his leprosy. 4Then Jesus said to him, “See that you don’t tell anyone. But go, show yourself to the priest and offer the gift Moses commanded, as a testimony to them.”
The first thing about faith is that it must be in God’s will. The man with leprosy came before Jesus and acknowledged that it was only by Jesus’ will that he would be healed. Likewise, we must not come barging into God’s throne room demanding and asking Him to approve and answer our wills. Instead, we should pray like Jesus prayed, “Yet not my will, but Yours be done.”
And as we pray and read His Word, we begin to realize and find out what God’s will is. Our thoughts and perspectives will slowly change as we continue to seek after His will.
The Faith of the Centurion (Matthew 8:5-13) – Word
5When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. 6“Lord,” he said, “my servant lies at home paralyzed and in terrible suffering.”
7Jesus said to him, “I will go and heal him.”
8The centurion replied, “Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. 9For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, ‘Go,’ and he goes; and that one, ‘Come,’ and he comes. I say to my servant, ‘Do this,’ and he does it.”
10When Jesus heard this, he was astonished and said to those following him, “I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. 11I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their placed at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. 12But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”
13Then Jesus said to the centurion, “Go! It will be done just as you believed it would.” And his servant was healed at that very hour.
The centurion’s faith was honoured by Jesus because he had faith in the power of the word of Christ and he had faith in the authority of Christ. The Word of God is as alive today as it has been 2000 years ago. God is still the King of kings and the Lord of lords, the one with the highest authority. Let’s begin to build our faiths on the foundation of His Word and believe in the power of His word.
But may we be always mindful of the will of God. We see that it wasn’t just blind faith the centurion had, but he too adhered to the will of Jesus. In verse 7, Jesus says that He will go and heal the centurion’s servant. And in verse 13, His Word comes to past. Indeed, His Word will come to past!
Jesus Heals Many (Matthew 8:14-17) – Works
14When Jesus came into Peter’s house, he saw Peter’s mother-in-law lying in bed with a fever. 15He touched her hand and the fever left her, and she got up and began to wait on him.
16When evening came, many who were demon-possessed were brought to him, and he drove out the spirits with a word and healed all the sick. 17This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: “He took up our infirmities and carried our diseases.”
The thing that really struck me as I read this part was how Jesus did not just stop at teaching and speaking with words, but He went on to fulfil the Words through His life, through His actions. He healed the sick, He did something. ‘Works’ were part of His ministry. He was practical.
These past few months, of being exposed to so many different kinds of needs around me, I am reminded to be practical as well as prayerful about the many needs. We cannot just pray for the poor hungry people that they will be fed and hope food falls from the sky for them. We need to do something. Indeed, faith without works is dead.
The Cost of Following Jesus (Matthew 8:18-22) – Worth It
18When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he gave orders to cross to the other side of the lake. 19Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.”
20Jesus replied, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.”
21Another disciple said to him, “Lord, first let me go and bury my father.”
22But Jesus said to him, “Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead.”
Is God worth it? At certain points in our Christian walk, this question is bound to come up. Is God worth giving up my home? My nine to five job? My securities? My comfort? Is He really worth it? Many times we make it all about ourselves but really this whole life, is for God. What are our lives but just a tiny dot in eternity. And as I slowly discover my faith, I believe God is worth it. He is worth more than I could ever imagine. And as I trust in Him, the risks I take are worth it. Obeying Him is worth it. Faith and following Him at times brings me to circumstances when I can’t have my way. But that’s okay, because I know what He is leading me to is worth it. But this is a question, each person has to answer on their own, according to their own convictions.
Jesus Calms the Storm (Matthew 8:23-27) – Winds, Waves and Worries
23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”
26He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
27The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”
Looking back at verse 18, we know that it was Jesus who gave the orders to cross over to the other side of the lake. And as follows, His disciples got into the boat with Him. Suddenly, they were hit by a furious storm which threw them into despair. But with Christ in the vessel, they were saved.
Many times, when God asks us to do something, there may come certain difficulties and struggles, winds and waves. And many times, these winds and waves can get really really overwhelming. But as our faith grows, as we remember God’s faithfulness and power in our lives, may we also always remember and acknowledge that our God is with us, and He is able to rebuke the winds and waves in our lives and calm the storms. Completely calm, perfect peace. Worries will come along the way, Jesus did not promise a smooth journey BUT (thank God for ‘but’s) He has promised to never leave us nor forsake us. And He is far greater than the winds and waves in our lives.
The Healing of Two Demon-possessed Men (Matthew 8:28-34) – Wins
28When he arrived at the other side in the region of the Gadarenes, two demon-possessed men coming from the tombs met him. They were so violent that no one could pass that way. 29“What do you want with us, Son of God?” they shouted. “Have you come here to torture us before the appointed time?”
30Some distance from them a large herd of pigs was feeding. 31The demons begged Jesus, “If you drive us out, send us into the herd of pigs.”
32He said to them, “Go!” So they came out and went into the pigs, and the whole herd rushed down the steep bank and into the lake and died in the water. 33Those tending the pigs ran off, went into the town and reported all this, including what had happened to the demon-possessed men. 34Then the whole town went out to meet Jesus. And when they saw him, they pleaded with him to leave their region.
The part of this last few verses that struck me was that of verse 29, where the demons knew Jesus had power and authority over them and in God’s time, they were doomed. God always wins. At the end of the day, He is and will be victorious. So, whose side will you choose to stand on? Our faith is not a hopeless airy belief, it is based on truth and based on a God who is victorious, who always wins at the end of the day.
My faith is not all of that, my faith is still very very small. But I pray that as I continue to journey with Christ, my faith in Him will grow.
As of now, I know that this faith, this following Him, is worth it.
have been back in campus since Wednesday. and have been going through lots of talks and sessions for this whole PM (Pembantu Mahasiswa/ Orientation Helpers) thing. last phase and then it’s the real thing – Orientation Week 
and through it all, i’ve actually learned quite a lot. well, much more than i expected.
i went for half of a course called “Energise and Be Energised” in replacement of a friend. although it was very very very, i say again, very brain draining, i did gain valuable insights. i was encouraged to see students from all kinds of backgrounds come together, talk, discuss and exchange views. we had to go deep into eight of the core values of Universiti Malaya. kind of like a moral class but which forced us to think practical not just the nice sounding moral-ish answers.
apart from that, a little something happened which reminded me that every opportunity must be stretched out for (it’s like i just came back from a motivational talk) but sad to say, i learned this through letting an opportunity pass and really regretting it after. it was a chance to speak up but i remained silent 
it wasn’t a big thing, but it was a chance. i’m asking God to grant me the courage to speak truth and the wisdom to speak it in love.
been listening to some sermons which Gloria sent to me. two have been very impactful – one on Unity by Nicky Gumbel and the other on Leadership by John C. Maxwell. both have caused me to reflect and repent from parts of my life that have been pretty off target from God’s aim. need to start investing my time in the right things now.
everyday, i look at myself and i wonder what does God see in me? i am so inadequate in so many areas, i’m so inconsistent, i have so many insecurities and fears and yet, everyday He brings me through. He gives me chance after chance after chance (i think i’ve long passed my second chance).
everyday, i get by and i know it is only by His grace and His power.
thank You, God. may You be seen in my life by the people around me.
You are my strength when I am weak.
the thing about people nowadays (me included) is that we’re not very careful with our words.
i remember when we were younger, “stupid” would get you into trouble. we were taught that it was a bad bad word and we were not to say it. but these days, we use “stupid” so carelessly. stupid this, stupid that. we use it for situations, people, things, etc.
i remember i used to struggle with maths when i was in standard 6 and once i said out of frustration “i hate maths!” my mom reprimanded me for using the word “hate” because she said it was a strong word that should not simply be used. i agree. yet today, i just have to take a look at facebook and i get to read all kinds of “i hate’s” on people’s statuses. in my opinion, “hate” is a very strong and destructive word.
well on the other hand, i think the meaning of the word “love” has been terribly misconstrued too. twisted, downgraded and misused. in its essence, “love” is such a beautiful and powerful word. however, it is used so lightly and simply these days. i myself have been guilty of this ‘sweet talk’ and because of that have hurt others and have been hurt by it too. i think many times we don’t really understand the meaning of “love” when we use it. how can you say you love someone and a few months down the line that love just disappears or worse, turns into hate.
are we saying things we do not mean?
saying things we may regret in time?
are we saying things that hurt others?
are we saying things simply because we feel like it without thinking through its consequences?
With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
- James 3:9-10
Lord, forgive me for the things i have said that i should not have. Grant me Your wisdom and guard my lips that the words i speak will be careful and glorifying unto You. Help me to only say what i mean but to also think through the consequences of my words. Keep my heart close to Yours because out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks.
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| yew leung and mah-mah :) Mah-mah (my grandma) passed away today at 3.30pm. Passed away peacefully with almost all her children and grandchildren around her. As she breathed her last, we each said our goodbye’s and i love you’s to her. She has gone to heaven and one day, I’ll meet her there. We’re okay with letting her go, we just miss her very much. ♥ |
God, help me to still look at them through your eyes, despite what i see here. And grant me wisdom to respond in love.Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” –Luke 23:34
today, i woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach. i wasn’t prepared for the week. i’d just learned the night before that i had to fill up lots of forms along with getting signatures, validations and whatnots and i had to send them back by this coming wednesday.
i was to go back to uni but i wasn’t sure at what time 
so i figured, early morning was the safest. i hadn’t packed yet.
everything seemed so disastrous. timings couldn’t have been worse. but the day went on still.
as it went on, it got better bit by bit. i found out i only needed to get back to college by 9pm which granted me a full day to finish up my forms.
was getting pretty stressed doing the forms. i thank God that my family members were very supportive and helpful throughout 
called the people in charge and they said there was a short grace period for the dateline. that piece of information was such a relief! (i’m still going to try to get it all done by tomorrow!)
and at the end of the day, i was just so thankful for how God brought me through the day. this passage from Luke 17:11-19 stuck with me throughout the day too.
Ten Healed of Leprosy (Luke 17:11-19)
11 Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus travelled along the border between Samaria and Galilee.
12 As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance
13 and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!”
14 When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed.
15 One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice.
16He threw himself at Jesus' feet and thanked him–and he was a Samaritan.
17Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine?
18Was no one found to return and give praise to God except this foreigner?”
19Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”
i want to be like that man who came back to Jesus full of praise and thanksgiving. i want to be that one out of ten. and today was just that; a day that got better as it went along. i was constantly reminded to keep going back to God in thanks. 
thank you, Lord. ♥
and thank you for what happened on 9th July 2011, Saturday.
you were right when you gave the words “unity” and “love for Malaysia.” indeed we saw the breaking down of barriers to stand together for what is right. continue to cause my heart to love my country and its people even more. thank you for Malaysia.
there’s still more to come! 
i sat on the steps, facing the blank wall which went around the compounds of Kuala Lumpur Gospel Hall (KLGH). that wall was tall, tall enough so that i could not see what was on the other side even when i stood at the top of those steps.
it was like that wall separated two worlds: the peaceful church grounds and the broken world outside on the streets of KL.
i sat there reflecting for a bit on the things i’d been exposed to the past few days; the refugees, the poor, the homeless. i thought about how we found it so irksome that the water got cut off before we could finish washing up the dishes, when clean running water was something many who were poor had no access to. the irony.
i thought about how my life was so comfortable. the roof over my head, the love of family and friends, more than enough food on our tables, pocket money i did not have to slave for, gadgets, the list goes on. my comfortable palace.
that morning’s devotion was about Queen Esther and what Mordecai said to her, “Don’t think for a moment that you will escape there in the palace when all other Jews are killed.” (Esther 4:13) it was a message from Mordecai to not be indifferent to what happened outside those walls because it would affect her too. it was about how Esther was in a place of comfort yet she still had a role to play in saving the people outside of her palace.
i am 21 years old. all my life i’ve been sheltered, loved and cared for, protected. i’ve never had to fight for food or runaway for my life. but i need to remember, ‘it could be me’.
i thought to myself how ignorant and indifferent i had been to everything around me. SWEEP really opened my eyes. the real world was a very broken one.
i sat on the steps, the high walls before me.
picture taken from http://weheartit.com/entry/11076207
have i built walls around me that keep the unpleasant things of the world out of sight? that cause me not to see, not to know the pain behind these walls?
Lord, tear down these walls I’ve built.
Take me outside of these palace walls.
Use me in this broken world,
to make a difference – one life at a time.
SWEEP : Social Work Exposure & Embracement Program 2011 (6th-19th June 2011)
the past one month plus since exams ended have been very eventful. starting with three weeks spent with the other PP’s (Pembantu Pelajar) otherwise know as orientation helpers.
the experience and relationships built were simply priceless and so very precious.
the first week of training was one that was bitter sweet. i remember asking if i had made the right decision to spend my holidays doing this. and i remember clearly what God said, “Give it your best.” 
i remember the late nights and early mornings. the constant soundings the seniors gave us. but we got through that and it taught us all to work together as a team and our friendships grew stronger.
the outdoor camp, for me, was when everyone really bonded, helped and aided each other. being thrown into a whole new environment was really great to help us learn that we needed each other. some were better in this and some were better in that. in the end, we all came together as one. 
the second week was our gerak kerja week. lots of work and preparations to be done for the coming orientation week. it was a lot more chilled and laid back as compared to the training week. and the amount of choki choki we consumed is mad! did a lot of dancing and cheering that week too. oh, i sprained my ankle too 
and had to go to a chinese doctor who rubbed and pulled it. i almost lost my purse too in all the drama but thank God for kind hearted people who found it and returned it .
as for orientation week, i was only there for half the week. cause i had a flight to Bali. but for the first half, it was a lot of early mornings and late nights again. and there was a lot a lot of students to handle! can’t remember but if i’m not wrong 900+? the hall was packed like a sardine can. didn’t really get to know many of them as i left pretty early. but the little bits of orientation that i was involved in, i enjoyed very much. oh, and i was part of the Biro Kesenian (or was it Kebudayaan?).
the PP’s also had a trip to langkawi after orientation week. unfortunately, it clashed with SWEEP 2011. (which will be another story to tell )
we’ll be having another orientation coming up when the undergraduates come in in september. let’s see how that goes.
these people, memories and experiences were simply priceless. and i really thank God for allowing our paths to cross. I thank God for telling me to give it my best from the start and that truly gave the whole thing a lot of meaning and purpose.
love you all banyak-banyak *HUGS*
what i’ve learned over the past two semesters of my first year in uni…LOTS!
i’ve learned to endure hardships and that hardships are a form of discipline from the one who loves me.
Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?-Hebrews 12:7
i’ve learned that i must continue enduring whatever comes my way and that God will give me the strength i need and because it builds faith and love for one another.
i’ve learned that i’ve endured a lot of consequences from my last minuteness and lousy management skills. i must learn from that.
i’ve learned that despite it all, God’s love endures forever. 
Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good.and this is my hope to keep on enduring - Him who endured it all for me.
His love endures forever.
-Psalm 136:1
2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful man, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.-Hebrews 13:2-3
i’ve learned that endurance is more than just sticking through something. it’s what keeps you going, pressing forward, persevering when everything is coming against you from every direction. endurance is what carries you to the end, to the finishing line.
endure, until the end.
*notice i’m doing a little alphabet challenge here on my own? 
coming up: F! i’m thinking maybe something on faith? forgiveness? friends? future? failures? feelings? or maybe, facebook? 
12th college is doing some work on the ponds we have between the girls’ and guys’ hostel blocks. And the best thing about that is they’ve added some ducks and geese to the pond too! 
Li Fen and I decided to go for a walk around the pond after lunch to see the new pets our college has. And she said, “12th college is like a farm now.” 
We’ve got cats, chickens, a rooster, and now ducks and geese!
`I’ll try to get some pictures of the ducks and geese.
There are four brown ducks and they always stick together. Always. They swim together, wade about together, clean themselves together.
And then there’s about seven white geese. They stick together too but not as much as the ducks. They’re super adorable when crossing the wooden plank. Hop hop hop.
But the ducks and the geese don’t mix with each other. I’m not sure why.
Okay, just some random rants at midnight about life here in uni. One more paper and then I’m done with first year! 
life has not been consistent. nopes. it fluctuates. it depends on the activities and on the things i have to do. sometimes i'm super duper free and chilled, other times you see me running about with lack of sleep written all over my face.
sleeping time is not consistent, eating times are not consistent, social life also not consistent.
sad to say, my walk with God has not been very consistent either in the midst of my busy mess. :(
looking back at my 7 months break before entering uni and also at my journal, i realized how much more time i had spent with God and on journaling things that were important. and looking back, i'm glad i journaled because on hindsight i've seen God's faithfulness and His consistency in my life.
in the past few months, my journal's been pretty inconsistent too :( there's been a lot of things missed out. lots of struggles, lots of pains, lots of joys, lots of praise, a lot of things – unwritten.
at the end of 2010, the words that God had spoken over and over to me was to be courageous and committed to the things He calls me to, to finish up what He gives to me and not to get distracted halfway.
stepped into 2011, and *whoosh* after a few weeks i was barely able to keep my head above the water. i let a lot of things distract me.
so, as of now, i’m trying to get back my consistency and momentum in this journey. and part of that is journaling and reading back, so that i will remember the things God has spoken to me.
i know it is true, that if i don’t learn to be consistent in my personal walk with God from now, when i start working or dating or doing something that takes a lot of time…sure habis. :\
God, thank You for Your faithfulness and consistency in my life. Thank You for Your amazing and unchanging love that still reaches out to me even when I’ve been so unfaithful and inconsistent in the things You’ve given to me. I’m so sorry I’ve let You down so many times and I’m so sorry for all the broken promises I’ve made. God, thank You for Your grace and mercy and Your second, third, fourth chances You’ve given me. And at the end of the day, I pray I will be like the good and faithful servant in the Parable of the Talents who invested and put to work the talents You’ve given to me. Teach me and guide me, Lord.
and should everything in my life become inconsistent and crazy, i pray that there would still be the one constant consistency in my life – God.
today, i helped my mom dye her hair. it was fun cause we both had no idea how to do it with any proper systems, whether it’s from up to down or down to up, side to side. i don’t know. i just spread and combed through her hair with the dye.
because her hair was short and we had mixed the whole bottle of dye, we decided to dye my hair too. though i think there won’t be much difference as the colour is pretty dark (macam the first time i dyed my hair. super fail 
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and as she spread the dye through my hair and tilted my head to the left, she said in shock, “Eh, why got earing here wan?! Since when you poke?”
uh oh. busted. 
i pierced my right helix in february and up till now, my parents have been pretty oblivious to it. hmm.
but mum’s ok with it, i guess. there was no further comment.
just, “Thanks for helping me dye my hair.” 
ah well. it’s raining again. and i’m sitting at my balcony, looking at the rain. it’s beautiful 
*joanne
i’m excited! for all God has in store.
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:37-39
