another rainy day

loveliest weather we've had in days,
sun shining down in warm golden rays

this was true just hours ago when i was walking to the swimming pool ah well. it’s raining again. and i’m sitting at my balcony, looking at the rain. it’s beautiful

two papers down, three more to go.

at the end of that, it’ll mean that my first year in uni is done.

*takes a moment to let that sink*

I FINISH MY FIRST YEAR IN UNI!
NO MORE THE BLUR SESAT JUNIOR.
NO LONGER IN THE “RED DOT” CATEGORY  *joanne
NO MORE THE ONE BEING LOOKED OUT FOR.

my adventure here in uni will continue to progress  i’m excited! for all God has in store.

three more years to go. this is my prayer:

Teach us to number our days aright,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
Psalm 90:12

rain is stopping. off to dinner. and then back to studying.

i have to remind myself; i’m not actually done with first year yet. i’ve still got my finals to finish up

toodles.

rainfall

so today i was studying in the library and i usually walk over to the big windows on the third floor when i need a change from looking at the blank walls. there's green grass and trees to look at from there, the blue cloudy skies on sunny days and most importantly, the warmth you get when you touch the glass.

there's also the main road where the cars all go in one direction and it's pretty interesting watching the people get in and out of the cars when they're not supposed to be stopping on that road. it's a different story when you're the one driving on that road and someone stops in front of you to let their passengers off. i get irritated most times :\ funny how when you're looking from that window it doesn't irritate you, instead it's amusing. funny what a change in perspective can do.

but today, it rained super duper heavily in the evening. thunder, lightning, strong winds and huge drops of rain. my window lost its warmth. and i just sat there watching the rain fall, watching the drops roll down the window. and i noticed the window leaks somewhere, cause the frame was slightly wet on the inside. just a  thought.

the rain, depicted precisely what i'd been feeling. :(
*this is turning into a gila emo post. which is rare, since i usually don't write gila emo posts.
i shall elaborate no further.

at first, i was pretty disappointed. why did it have to rain? it spoiled some dinner plans we had, i had no umbrella, i was stuck in the North Pole of UM, i was really hungry and really cold. awesome. i really wanted to say, "it's not fair!" but something in me said, "God knows best."

God knows best. dinner was postponed. the rained paused to a drizzle for a while so that i could walk over to the bus stop quickly. the bus came after some time, nevertheless at least it came. i got out of the North Pole back to the other side of UM where i stay. i went straight for dinner, bumped into some friends and had good company for dinner. i think i ate too much :\ i got back to my room and died on the bed for a few hours.

i am reminded, unlike weather changes, God still remains and is unchanging. He still cares, He still understands, He still knows what is best.

i think i'm pretty sick of the library for now. it's too cold and too crowded, and i'm such a complainer. terrible.

finals start next week, God still remains. yay!

nothing can separate

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.  

Romans 8:37-39

when all is uncertain,

hold on to what is unchanging.

You are unchanging, everlasting,

the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

and therefore,

my hope in You is certain.

i love you.

twentyone

i had a lovely birthday thank you very much to all who made it happen and all the wishes here there and everywhere. i am blessed.
most memorable bits and pieces of it…

1. the singing group at my door at 12am -thank you, lydia, ruth vinoth, emily tang, jun ling and sandra.
2. reading a letter i wrote to myself when i was 14 years old. it said on the front: To Lee Wai Yan, read on your 21st birthday. Jesus Loves You.
3. McDonald’s breakfast at 4am to celebrate my birthday with 14 others. i was in my zombie mode. –i am so grateful for friends who are willing to get up (or not sleep until) such an hour just to have McD’s together
4. my class singing ‘Happy Birthday’ for me hee.
5. i got free lunch and also a free compartmentalized container too!
6. one class getting cancelled and so i could finish up another assignment due that day. thank you, God.
7. bible study – i learnt about Christian unity. though i was a bit sleepy due to the 4am breakfast.
8. mamak and swensen’s ice cream after that such a surprise, the ice cream was! thank you mima us girls were so grateful and excited.
9. phone call all the way from australia –miss you, veili!
10. i rode a motorbike after a long time. thank you, bestfriend for letting me ride the bike.  hee.
11. all the gifts and cards and notes i got  

i say it again, i am blessed. thank you, God.

so, twenty one years old. what have i achieved and where am i heading to? there’s a lot to think about there. as of now, i’m going to do my best for God where i am now. throughout the years, i’ve learned to love a little more, hope a little more and have a little more faith. and God has been teaching me a lot, though i may not be a good student at times i’ve come to know my worth in God’s eyes and how precious i am to Him. i’ve discovered my heart a little bit more and have dealt with broken bits and pieces here and there. it’s beautiful how when God begins to come into our lives, He heals and restores. indeed, He makes everything beautiful in His time. i am still learning and growing in this walk. i still struggle, i still get disappointed and discouraged, i still cry. i still am human and i still make mistakes (lots of them :| ) but God still loves me – and that gives me hope.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:13

like i’ve said before,

in my life, i want to have more faith, more hope and more love

have a nice day. thank you again :)

also, this is my 100th post! *throws confetti in the air* :) hee. took me super duper long to get here ok!