halfway through the year

So many things to write, to share. I don't know where to start.

I start with thanksgiving.

I thank God for bringing me through two full academic years of university. I finished my Second Semester of my Second Year on the 19th of June 2012 :) And I thank God for bringing me through. I thank God for the friends he has brought into my life along the way. The people I got to know better and who bring a little more colour into my life :)

I thank God for helping me as I served in different areas of university, whether it was JTK or PKV. Without Him, I think I would have given up long ago. I know certain things could have been better, and I do have regrets and "what if"s but I know that it was a lot of His grace and mercy all throughout. I thank God for the experience of being in JTK and for the people I got to know throughout. It wasn't easy and I found things frustrating at times. But it taught me to trust and know that God is indeed above all. PKV, has been a lot of things to me. It has been a blessing and it has also caused me to be challenged and broken in many areas. There's so much more though, and I am excited for the things God has in store for this group.

But lately (lately as in this previous week) I've been struggling. A lot of questions that seem to end up with the answer, "I don't know..." :( Yet I am very grateful for the people who have been there to listen, who have thrown me some questions to think about, who have taken the time to love me despite me being very unclear and lost :\

I'm still asking questions, still trying to figure out the answers, but what I really really really just need is for God to touch and change me. Which could mean turning my whole life inside out and upside down, but if in His hands and in His will would be the best.

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed,

for His compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

I say to myself,"The Lord is my portion;

therefore I will wait for Him."

The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him,

to the one who seeks Him;

it is good to wait quietly

for the salvation of the Lord.

Lamentations 3:22-26

Hold on to His promises. Seek and wait upon the Lord, my dear.