student for Christ

it's less than one month to SPM *gulps*

and recently, i just can't seem to sit down and study. i don't know but my attention span is super duper short. especially for sejarah *yawns* i always end up doing something else.

and then i look at the calender and realize that i have just a few weeks more. so i start to feel a little panic, actually mostly guilt for not studying.

sometimes i feel that studying is so pointless. take pendidikan moral for example. you have to remember 36 nilai's (values) and their definitions word for word. ugh. it's not like we want to learn all that. anyway, i don't think just memorizing all those nilai's makes you a very moral person.

or sejarah. i know history is important and we cannot be ignorant to what happened in the past. i didn't think history was that bad in form 1,2 and 3 but come form 4 and 5, truthfully i find it boring. like i-can-fall-asleep-halfway-on-the-book boring.

anyway, as i was saying i find studying really pointless at times. and i wonder, why am i studying? what is my goal? i think the whole purpose of studying for me is still a blur because i don't really have a goal or ambition at the moment. it's not like i'm studying to be a doctor or to get into college or something like that. yups, i'm still pretty sesat, career wise.

but you know what. i believe God has a plan for my life. and i trust Him to take care of me always. yups :) but i have my responsibility too! as He has placed me in school as a student, my purpose at the moment is to shine for Him among my the people around me and do my best in everything, that includes studying, and moral and sejarah.
because at the end of the day, i will say Praise the Lord for He is good! because whatever the results may be, good or bad, as long as i've done my best, i trust and believe that God will take care of my future and of me. Ahh, such sweet assurance.

so as for now, i will study my best so that at the end of the day, i can glorify God for His goodness! and to you, whether you're studying still or working or whatever you may be doing now and in future, do it all for God! relying on His grace and strength and not upon your own abilities and talents! God is an ever present help in times of trouble!

Colossians 3:23-24
Whatever you do,
work at it with all your heart,
as working for the Lord, not for men,
since you know that you will receive
an inheritance from the Lord as a reward.
It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

Dear Lord, help me in my studies. to do my very best for You. help me to trust in You. and to walk close to You everyday.

i am a student for Christ!