lay down my pride

Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. 

All of you, clothe yourselves with humility towards one another, because,

"God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."

1 Peter 5:5

The weekend hasn't been the best :\ I struggled with a lot of unpleasant emotions towards others and myself. I didn't understand and when I asked God, there didn't seem to come relief. I was tired, broken, defeated and still very bitter towards certain people around me. I really didn't like me :(

Then it dawned upon me on the dawn of Monday (heehee :P), I struggled because of my pride. I found it so hard to say I was sorry and admit that I was wrong because I wanted to be right. I wanted others to acknowledge that I was right, and when they didn't, it upset me.

Pride only breeds quarrels, 

but wisdom is found in those who take advice.

Proverbs 13:10

I look back on the situations, and I regret. I'm sorry for being rude and cold. I'm sorry for hurting the people around me, for distancing myself from others, not giving anyone a chance to understand. I really want to change my ways and my attitude, I want to be a humble person. A person who is brave and courageous enough to lay down my pride and give up my rights.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.

1 Peter 5:6-7

Because I have a God who is mighty and sovereign, I know that as I humble my life before Him, He will take care of me. I don't have to fight for my rights or strive to gain achievements and glory for myself, I don't have to have things in my life to boast about. I don't have to worry or fear if I'll be enough or have enough in this world. At the end of the day, I have nothing in my life that is not God given. And even then, my greatest treasure is God. :)

Riches I heed not nor man's empty praise;

Thou mine inheritance now and always;

Thou and thou only first in my heart;

High King of Heaven my treasure thou art.

May my life from here on be one that pleases God and that gives glory and praise unto Him. May it be one that is marked with humility and that is not proud. May I be one who lives for God. 

Wai Yan, remember:

God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.

mad weekend into december

not like we have snow or white christmas-es here in malaysia. but, this picture is beautiful :)

it's been an amazing week and weekend. helped Charity a bit for Christmas Tapestry the preparations and the shows on Friday and Saturday night :) which was lovely! it was quite a new experience for me and i learned a lot. the people involved, singers, musicians, technical crew, were all so humble and friendly and very helpful to this girl who has never dabbled in a production before.

Tapestry doing their thing :)

i also met the cutest kids during one of the practices - Douglas and Lucas :) it was pretty alright until the boys started to have disagreements over their dad's ipad and then my laptop. :\

this was lucas and i entertaining ourselves while the singers were practicing.  such a charming kid!

we had softball tournament for SUKMUM on Saturday and Sunday  and we won 3rd place :D i really enjoyed being on the softball team and it was such a great feeling when we won because some of us on the team started with zero idea how the game worked (well, for me at least). apart from that, the support, encouragement and teamwork of the team was really great :) even with my lousy batting, i still felt a part of the team :)

with the 1st College team and umpire for the game :) we love good sports!

i missed the semi-finals softball game though cause i had to run off for the Christmas Tapestry thing on Saturday. wish i could have been at both. but i have no regrets about it lah. next time, i'll just have to be wiser in choosing my commitments. :) i enjoyed both very very very much, don't get me wrong, but it gets tiring having to run here, there and everywhere.

this week, will be a lot of assignments and preparations for PKV's Christmas Caroling :) the coming weeks look very daunting and overwhelming, but i believe and trust that God will bring us through. He is the God who is the creator of all things and who is above all things. I will be still, know You are God.

And He awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, 

"Peace! Be Still!" 

And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. 

Mark 4:39

Christmas is coming! :D

which means

November is ending,

which means

December is beginning,

which means

Christmas is coming,

which means

Holidays :D

which mean

the end of semester,
which means

assignment deadlines
which after that means

study break,

which also means

exams after :\

which then means
freedom when it's done :D
which before that means

a new year,

which means

the end of 2012,

which means

the fresh start of 2013

which means

...

I always say it's crazy how time flies :| but I thank God for each and every moment and second with Him. And in Him I know my days and times are secure in His hands. There will be crazy stormy confusing tiring and horrible days, but we can trust in the God, who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, to bring us through what is to come. We need not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, 

for tomorrow will worry about itself. 

Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:34

Trust God and seek Him first.

happy birthday :)

a bit late, but anyway...

Happy Birthday, Ernest Lee!

i love you :)
ngaawww :P

*BIGHUG*

thank you for always being there for me :)
it's been quite a wonderful journey thus far;
of knowing you and then falling in love with you and now learning to love each other better.
may we continue to grow personally and together,
always having Christ at the center of it all.

may you always have your heart set upon God and the things of God, that He may continue to build you and shape you into the man He has intended for you to be and that He would use your life to reach out and touch many other lives. may He be your strength and peace in all that you do and know that His grace is sufficient for you. His love never fails.

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from Him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
He is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in Him at all times, O people;
pour our your hearts to Him,
for God is our refuge.
Psalm 62:5-8

God is our refuge, stay strong in Him.
:)

with lotsa lotsa lotsa love,
waiyan

(23rd November 2012)

carry on

i had one of the best semester breaks last week, one of the best weeks of my life :)

it's been over two months since i last saw Ernest in person and so this one week together was something i really looked forward to. there were quite a number of change of plans, but i guess things still turned out good :)

we did a lot of travelling together :) and i loved it! but poor guy was the driver while i sat comfortably in the passenger seat :\ it was a lot of long talks during those long drives. singing along with the radio, sometimes falling asleep.

this song "Carry On" by F.U.N. was played about fifteen or more times during our trip. jadilah our trip's theme song.

i got to spend some time with his family in his hometown, Tanjung Malim. met his friends here and there. went for my first Deepavali open houses :) went back to the refugee school with Ernest. which brought back a lot of memories for me :) and reminded me what a great man i am blessed with :) met Joshua Johnson who says he was the one who matched us up way back in SWEEP. :| haha.

he brought me to tour his hometown and then brought me back to his campus in Nibong Tebal, Penang. met more of his uni friends who i find to be very funny and who made me feel at home :) we went night running. had talks on the sidewalk. i fell into a hole in the ground right in front of Ernest :\ must have been a little over-excitement :P

we went to Penang and explored a bit. ditched our hiking plans and decided to enjoy the beach at a hotel. it was so serene, so perfect. i always loved the sea. :) met more friends for lunch and changed plans again and decided to head back to campus. dinner again that night with his friends. two tomyam places were closed, so we settled for steamboat. assignments at night :| and was so tired we decided to do face masks in the car at 2 am :|

the next day was the day before our run. went over to Penang island again and met up with Phang Carmen. went for dinner with more of his friends who were also going for the marathon, at Kapitan which has awesome tandoori chicken with briyani rice. and headed over to Isaac's place for the night. got ready at about 1 am for the run. this was actually the reason for the trip, our half marathon on the Penang bridge.

Penang bridge half-marathon (21km), we finished in about 3 hours 11 minutes, okaylahh. considering our training was like... it was quite an experience, i must say. Ernest and i ran together most of the way, until the last kilometer.

tadaa :) finisher!

:)

next run, we'll finish it together kay :) 

there's a next run? 

after the run, got back to Isaac's place all aching and sticky and smelly. took our baths and everyone konked out for a few hours. watched Pitch Perfect and after that we just went here and there, till it was time for me to go back home. kinda decided on that that night. was actually really heavy hearted to leave though :( 

i guess, it's the distance and how much i miss him. and also that coming back meant a crazy workload (which was brought upon myself with my "amazing" time management.) but no regrets on the break. it was worth it :) 

If you're lost and alone

Or you're sinking like a stone

Carry on

May your past be the sound

Of your feet upon the ground

Carry on

- Carry On, F.U.N.

like in a reaaaallyyy long marathon or journey, i guess life's like that. there'll be the really tiring and low times, where our whole body just wants to give up. we may take a rest, but we don't stop. we carry on with perseverance and hope in God. now, go carry on. and may God be with you! :)