state of calm

this week was joanne’s birthday she turns twenty-one! sue ann and i took her out for lunch after one of her tough papers and after my “kinda” last paper and a surprise re-test but it was a good catch up time with the two

birthday girl is the tiny one at the back seat love you, joanne!

i thank God very much for the both of you in my life!

it was also phi nn’s birthday that same day and she came over to our room to share some cake. i’ve really enjoyed her friendship and company as i got to know her a bit more through our orientation helper days.

will try to spend more time with you!

this week, i sat for four papers. one more paper to go (next friday) and then i’ll be officially done with semester one of my second year. *woohoo!*

a friend asked me if i’m still emo and i answered “no, cause circumstances are favourable at the moment.” i call it the “state of calm”. but i got to learn to find my joy in God which means joy in spite of whatever circumstances i may be in, good or bad or super bad. joy, even when life is like a ship-sinking storm!

yeah, i’m not quite there yet. and so this year, i want to find my joy in God, and that the joy of my salvation be restored unto me. there’s this whole thing about living for eternity through Christ who saves us. and i am able to have joy because of this eternity i believe and live for.

apart from that, sue ann and i had a flashback moment where we watched a bunch of videos we made to our future selves in two-thousand-twelve. we had a lot of hopes for our future selves i must say and advices too (as if we had it all figure back then righhht..)

These were my five advices to WaiYan of 2012

1. Be obedient to God. Listen and obey. Don’t rush and don’t follow your own desires because God knows best.
2. Be spontaneous and don’t always be so uptight and rigid and square because sometimes God wants you to be flexible and creative. And God is pretty fun…at times.
3. Don’t neglect people around you. You’re quite bad at that, you tend to push people away when you’re busy. Cause at the end of the day, it’s about the relationships you make and the friends that are important and how you impact their lives and how they bless and encourage and comfort you when you…yeah, don’t neglect the people around you lah.
4. Exercise ah! And don’t eat so much junkfood and so much biscuits. Don’t become more gemuk than you already are (HAHA!)
5. If there is a boy in your life, always put God before that boy and (long pause) you will realise that all your ideals for a boy, sometimes you’ll have to throw a few out of the window. Hopefully, you’ll be wise when it comes to it. Just don’t let your emotions take over you like a rollercoaster or something like *pshh*. God first!
   (i would like to edit the final advice just a bit. May God be your everything.)

those were pretty good advices and still very relevant and practical for my life.

we had a ton of hopes! truckloads of them! a few we’ve taken grasp of, a few still trying to find. But all in all, i think we’re growing and going in the right direction *hopefully.

i hope you always find your joy and life in God, waiyan.

one year ago – 2011