let’s try to keep things clean and neat, ok?

cleaned up my room

looked like a hurricane ran through it but now it is very neat. chehwahh.
yewmeng likes to joke that if our house got robbed, the robbers would enter my room and think that it had already been ransacked by robbers.
my kawan said more like a tsunami happened, considering the amount of time i took to clean up my room. hehh

but anyway, apart from all those snide remarks, my room is in the state of … BERSIH
and i intend to keep it that way

And i’ve been thinking, my life is very much like my room. It get’s messy, it get’s cleaned up. Many times, i’m just too lazy and tired to clean it up, i’ll just make do with whatever space i can find in the mess. It get’s frustrating when i can’t find my stuff, it gets uncomfortable to live in…and then i’ll go into cleaning mode.

My life gets messy too. I get distracted, get lost, get tired, get frustrated, get stuck, get scared… And always, i’m unable to clean up my life on my own, and God in His love and mercy, reaches out and washes over me. thank you.

My mom always nags me to keep my room tidy. She says to put my clothes back into the cupboard, put my books and stuff back into their correct places, hang up my towel, pick up my clothes, etc. Basically, put away stuff and keep things orderly.

My room doesn’t just become messy in just a minute or two, it starts with trying on clothes and leaving them on my bed, then messing up my cupboard to find a shirt or something, then not putting away my clean folded clothes…the study table get’s messy starting with not putting away the papers and pens after making some cards, then leaving books and papers on it, after a while, it’s so cluttered, i can’t use the table for writing or anything, so I do my work on the bed. bad habit. I like to write, read, study on the bed. And usually just fall asleep with everything on it. Oh, and i leave lots of books and stuff on the floor too. The dressing table goes crazy starting with the accessories; hair ties, earrings, bracelets, necklaces, this and that. After a while, so many things are jumbled up, I sometimes can’t find my pair of glasses. Haiyo. So, that’s roughly how my room ends up looking like a hurricane ran through.

And like life, things usually don’t just come crashing down in a mess instantly. Well, at least for me lah. I tend to just walk into messes or create messes for myself Pretty dumb, but yeah. It starts with little compromises. Not doing what i know i’m supposed to do and doing stuff i know i’m not supposed to do.

Then i wonder, where did it all come crashing down? How did i end up in such a situation?

And all i can do is turn to God. Desperately in need for Him to come intervene, come and help clean up my mess. And sometimes, I wonder if He ever gets fed-up with this girl who never seems to learn her lesson but in His great love and compassion, decides to help her and give her a second chance.

i love you. i know i don’t deserve these second chances. thank you.

So, like how i’m trying to keep my room tidy, i’m going to try to live my life for God according to His standards and His will. I know i will definitely struggle, fall, stumble, make messes, sin…but at least try, try to stay in tune with Him, stay right with God. Where i can, i will live to please Him, and even then i cannot do it on my own, i still run and am fuelled by His grace and strength.

I am after all, just a sinner saved by grace. His grace.

♥